Weekend Ruminations: What Freddie taught us about life and art

(Photo by Neal Preston)

In 2018 Bohemian Rhapsody tore up the theatres, telling the story of Freddie Mercury and introducing the music of Queen to a new generation.  As a musician, who used to play Queen songs on stage, I was excited for this biopic to come out and it did not disappoint.  Rami Malek delivered an Oscar winning performance, the rest of the cast was fabulous, the music was front and centre, and the story of Freddie’s inspirational but difficult journey was told with respect.  

Spoiler alert:  To write this article I need to talk about the movie.  If you haven’t seen it yet, and want to, please don’t read any further.

The movie tells the story of Freddie’s journey, both as a person and as an artist.  It chronicles, with many liberties taken with the factual timeline, Queen’s rise to fame and Freddie’s remarkable talent as an artist.  Along the way it also tells the story of Freddie coming to peace with his true sexual identity, of the things that he lost along the way, and about how he came to accept his AIDS diagnosis.  The movie’s climax is the band’s 1985 performance at Live Aid.  This performance, often touted as one of the the greatest of all time, can be seen here if you haven’t seen it before:

https://youtu.be/A22oy8dFjqc

There is a scene near the end of the movie, set during rehearsals for the Live Aid show, where Freddie tells the band about his AIDS diagnosis.  During the conversation Freddie tells the band that he does not want pity, but rather that he wants to use the time that he has left to do what loves the most:  make music.

During the Live Aid performance Queen opened with Bohemian Rhapsody, where Freddie sings the following lines:

Too late, my time has come

Sends shivers down my spine, body’s aching all the time

Goodbye, everybody, I’ve got to go

Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth

Mama, ooh, I don’t want to die

I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all

You can see Freddie sing those lyrics for real via the link above, from 1:35 – 2:18.  It is a poignant and powerful moment, hearing him sing those lyrics while knowing that he had an untreatable life threatening illness.

The movie ends with the Live Aid performance, showing Freddie at the top of his game and doing what he loved.  When the film faded out a funny thing happened… nobody moved.  It’s like the audience was holding its collective breath, not wanting the experience to end.  Then, as the credits rolled to Queen’s “Don’t Stop Me Now”, a few people got up and danced in the aisles.  They danced… in a theatre… during the credits.  It was a surreal experience.

There is always a difference between reality and film-making, of course, and the truth is that while Freddie may have been sick in 1985 he didn’t actually know that he had AIDS at that time.  The poignant Live Aid scenes described above were brilliant screen writing for sure, but not how it actually happened.  By most accounts Freddie wasn’t conclusively diagnosed until 1987, and most likely didn’t tell the band until some time after that.  Freddie was an enormously private person after all, who didn’t tell the world about his diagnosis until the day before his death on November 24th, 1991.

What we do know, however, is that Freddie lived his life unapologetically, continuing to be his own man and doing the work that he loved for as long as his mind and body let him.  Freddie taught us to be true to ourselves, to always believe in our talents, and to live the life that we want to live without regret.  Queen released three more albums after Live Aid, the last just 9 months before Freddie’s death.  Fittingly, the final track on Freddie’s last album is the classic song “The Show Must Go On”, written specifically about Freddie’s continuing efforts despite having a terminal illness.  It is telling to me that some of Freddie’s last lyrics included the following lines:

“I’ll face it with a grin, I’m never giving in, On with the show”

What is the tie in to photography and life?  I’m getting there, I promise…

I have been around a lot of suffering in my life: watching patients pass away during my former career as a paramedic, losing brothers and sisters at work to accidents, illness and suicides, losing members of my family, etc.  I have also been sick myself, and I can tell you with absolute certainty that there is nothing more powerful than being faced with your own mortality.  It can be overwhelming, but it can also be incredibly motivating.  Years ago, inspired to follow my dreams of working as a full time photographer after a period of being sick, I made several life changing decisions.  It wasn’t easy, it required a lot of hard work and sacrifice, but I regret nothing.  I now lead a wonderful life as a photographer, educator, writer and speaker.  It’s pretty damn amazing.

So, I ask you:

Are you prioritizing what you love?  It might be something small, perhaps just walking the dog more, learning a bit about macro photography, or perhaps practicing a new instrument.  It might be something huge, perhaps a move across the country, writing a book, or changing careers to become a full time photographer.  Either way, start working toward your goals.  Just start.  Go out and find that thing that brings you joy, then do it over and over and over again because you love it.  They say that nothing in life worth having comes easily, but pursuing it is always better than living with the regret of never doing it.  Freddie taught us that life is a gift, as is being an artist, and we all owe it to ourselves to live our best lives, don’t we?

Cheers,

Ian

2 thoughts on “Weekend Ruminations: What Freddie taught us about life and art

  1. Khürt Williams says:

    While I am not unhappy with my career, I am unhappy about the working conditions; the open plan workspace is stressful, but it’s everywhere these days. I am allowed to work remotely for two days a week.

    I dislike winter but put up with it for the last 23 years because this is where the family is. And when you are raising two kids, having her family nearby (literally the same town) is helpful. But the taxes are hell, and the weather is shit, so my wife and I are considering a move now that both kids will be in college. But where?

    Seventeen years ago, we both developed lifelong health challenges that have resulted in a much smaller bucket list of life goals. We now have to “settle” for what’s doable.

    I’ve got too many regrets (not doing things sooner). A few words of wisdom to the young. Do it all NOW!!!

    NOTE: I apologize if my comments are not upbeat.

    • Ian says:

      Hey Khurt,

      Thank you for sharing that. I have a close friend who is a programmer for one of the large tech companies and he too hates the open floor plan model. I could see that being frustrating when you are trying to be task focused.

      Have you ever heard of the Runway of Life? It is a model I learned about a long time ago. Put in the most simplistic of terms it is essentially this:

      Draw a horizontal line on a piece of paper. On the left, put 0. On the right, put the age you think you will live to. Now, plot your current age on the line. Everything to the left of that is done, it is part of your history now. Everything on the right of it, however, is uncharted territory. That is still the time we have left to follow our heart and do what we can with our life goals. 👍

      Cheers,

      Ian

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